19.08.21 I'll probably get a part-time job

 I got some message from a former co-worker. It said they're looking for someone who can work at the city hall as a part-time job. I was wavering between to do or not to do. I had been thinking that Actually I don't do something meaningful during the day time, So I need to do activity like a part-time job or something. and I'm starting to run out of cash. I thought It would be the good chance.

 

 I answered the text. and asked some questions I have. They said the period would be from 16, Sep to 31, Dec, and it's negotiable. I've been planing to not work for a year. but I happend to have a part-time job which like I had got a job on Jan to Mar. It's so hard to not work.

 

I said that I don't do something meaningful during the day time. I need to talk about this.

 

 I was thinking I have no time to do what I want when I was working. I wanted to practice an instrument, to go somewhere as a trip, to meet someone, to study something, to get some skills. but These are too much to do while working. So I complained about lack of time all the time. at last, the job ended, I could use my time all day. but I barely tried these things. It was even less than before.

 

Finally I thought that just because I can use time of a whole day doesn't mean I can do a whole things meaningful that I planned. I need some tension that is not too hard. I did a better job of a twenty-minute task in 30 minutes than I did in 3 hours.

 

To be honest, It's quite a pain in the neck to have to work for money. but It makes my rest of vacation into shining gold. Value lasts only in case it's not infinite.

 

2019.08.21 pm11:07